Stream of Consciousness

None of the hats I have made for Annie fit very well and I think that its the yarn I was using. I have a bag of stuff that Joe's mom let me use and I just think its not stretchy enough because the hat looks like it could fit me and then it barely stays on her head!

I have felt very unhealthy throughout this pregnancy and can't wait till I can get back into shape and loose tons of weight. However I am not helping myself at all with all of the crap that I have been eating lately. Yesterday I made chocolate chip cookie dough with the excuse that I have people coming over...friday :o) I really just wanted the dough and I have been snacking on it for two days now. I don't plan on baking the cookies anytime soon either so we will see if there are any cookies to be had on friday :o)
To contradict the beginning of the last thought, I have felt really good the past few days! Although I am still uncomfortable in the evening after I have been doing things all day long I feel a big relief from her turning to head down and I have another AFI on friday when I go to my OB and will not be surprised to find if my fluid levels have dropped. I just don't feel like my belly begins at my chin anymore.

However much I have been saying that I am ready to be done with this pregnancy that feeling has changed in the past week and it might have something to do with the fact that her room is still a mess of boxes and that is 100 times better than it looked 2 days ago. I realized that if I go into labor now that not only do I not have a bag packed but I don't even know which box those important things are that I am going to need like my nursing bras etc... So maybe reality has changed my mind or maybe its that I feel a little better either way I am cautiously thinking that its not going to happen any time soon.
In preparation I got out all of my premie and 0-3 month clothes from Annie and realized that you all will have to put up with my child only wearing onesies this summer because all of Annies stuff is Flannel and Fleece! I dont really have any summer stuff!

I am starting to desire to hang things on the walls now that I have been in the house for a few weeks, unfortunately I have to wait for my husband to do those things. The nice part about my hubby is that he likes to have things to keep him busy although I don't know that he wants to have a power tool in his hand 24/7 but who knows maybe he does.
Yesterday our new mini blinds arrived and I didn't call him at work to let him know, thinking that because he had softball he wouldn't want to hang them after he played anyway. When he got home he decided to hang one in our room pre-drilling and screwing them in by hand "just to see if it fit"! He ended up doing 4 more by hand and this was after his softball game in which his arm and hand always hurt after because he plays too hard. The man is a freak... but I love him :o)

This Girl Is Onto Something!

I have always wanted to learn to crochet. I am an eighty year old lady when it comes to my love of doilies and though I don't own any I have always wanted to learn to make them. A few weeks ago on a slow saturday at work a friend was crocheting a hat for a preemie in the NICU that she had delivered the before. She taught me how to make the hat and 3 tiny little hats later I think I have the hang of it! I decided to branch out because I have ALWAYS wanted Annie to have a beanie with a flower on it. So I made a newborn hat and then watched youtube videos and learned how to make this!

Now I just need to learn to make a hat that fits Annie instead of her baby doll!

Me and My Girls

My amniotic fluid levels are at 25cm which is the highest side of normal, they will rescan me in 2 weeks and make sure they are still ok but other than that no further testing which would mean a 3 hour glucose test for no real reason since my one hour was 84 (way normal) and I have no personal or family history of gestational diabetes! I received this latest picture of my little one, can you see her face with her little hands bunched up under her cheeks? Its not a very good picture but its something to take home which is always fun :o)

She is head down instead of sideways which makes Momma very happy however surprisingly not any more comfortable :o( I was hoping that when she turned I would no longer have this crazy intense pain under my right rib but I suppose that is not going to happen. I am 34 weeks today and I think that this picture is long overdue.

This picture was taken in our den/office. Its a nice cozy room that is 3 steps down off of the kitchen. There is a bathroom and Kellys room and the garage and basement access all through this room and we recently got the office desks computer things unpacked and set up so my wireless connection is now MUCH faster and I am able to do more on the computer again without "borrowing" a connection from the neighbors shhhh :o)

Here is a precious little stinker that posed for a picture for me momentarily in the den next to the wood burning stove. I actually meant to get a picture of the stove also so that you could appreciate its wonderfulness but then I (naturally) focused in on my little girl :o)

She got a MUCH needed haircut last night and did fairly well sitting on my lap. She was weirded out and annoyed by the stylist being so close to her but we made it through and are better because of it! The dirty mullet was getting out of control and now she is my precious little girl again! Which makes me happy after about 2 weeks of crazy psycho monster baby who would throw a fit at the drop of a hat! She was Dr Jekyll/Mr Hyde with "yes mam" one minute and screaming on the floor the next! I couldn't make her happy with anything I tried! Yesterday and today have been much better and she is actually her funny little self again. She started saying Yes mam without me even teaching her, I have her say "yes mamma" when I am giving her instructions but she came up with yes mam on her own and would even shorten it to "yeah mam" sometimes :o)

She declares that she sees the swings and slides at any park we drive by and says "Ohhhh Kiiiidds" even when there aren't any there :o)
Gramps is her new best friend and she calls him "Mamps"
When we go to the grocery store she points at the Folgers Coffee cans and says "mus mus" because my dad feeds Musket out of them when he is in the house so that his ears dont hang into the water and make a big mess :o) It took me a few minutes to realize why she was calling coffee mus mus!

Pictures and Things

How sad is it that I am letting my child sit in front of the T.V while she eats right now just because she complained when I told her she had to sit in her high chair to eat cereal? I am having such a hard time with her throwing fits. I have spied a tooth coming in so I feel like that gives her a little bit of an excuse besides just early terrible two's. But I find myself either constantly disciplining, fighting with her, or compromising and giving her something I know will appease her. Like yesterdays fit in the grocery store because she wanted a banana and not sit in the cart, since it was a 5 second run to the store for Aunt Kelly I gave in and shoved a pacifier in her mouth which pleased her and Aunt Kel very much since she said she won the loudest child in the store award!
Anyway this post was supposed to be more fun than the fact that I have an emotional and difficult child right now :o)

What the Living room looked like during the rehab work with the awful blue color and dark trim

The living room this morning with child watching PBS and all! I LOVE the white trim and the 2 big book shelves that I am not feeling very creative about... however there is about 5 feet between the couch and the shelves that is perfect for hiding Annies toys!

Annie on our first morning in the new house helping unpack her refrigerator magnets

Joes nephews and Annie in a picture taken for mothers day. Brady the 6 month old is standing in the back because he doesn't bend well and is so strong that Carter cant hold onto him he ends up flipping backwards. So Charlotte held him and I edited her out of the picture :o)

Having a popcorn 'dessert' after a picnic lunch in the backyard

First Day in The New House

I began typing this on Monday night and was unable to finish. However I wanted to share it with you all so just pretend like it is Monday May 17th :o)



It has happened, the day has arrived! I live in my very own home! We arrived late yesterday afternoon and with help from Joe's mom and George we got the living room furniture in place on the area rug and the hard wood floors were all mopped by me on my hands and knees! I love a good clean floor. I decided that the pro's of mopping 2 rooms on your hands and knees is that its a good position to help encourage baby girl to flip, the cons of spending all that time down there is heartburn :o)

Last night after dinner at Joe's moms while I washed our sheets we came home and put our nice freshly washed sheets on My Very Own Bed!!! Let me tell you, after spending 6 weeks in a full size bed our Queen size bed felt like a King! I didn't really sleep any differently than I have been, however when I woke up I was so comfortable that I didn't need to cry, curse or go to the couch which is what I have been doing lately :o)

Annie slept fairly well considering she was in a new room, a new bed, with the street light streaming in the uncovered window.

This morning after serving Annie stale cheerios out of her diaper bag and yesterdays leftover cup of juice out of the fridge, Joe's mom called and offered to come over and help me get things organized! She was a Godsend! I was feeling QUITE overwhelmed just looking around at all the boxes that needed unpacking and the things that needed to be cleaned. I was fine with getting it done little by little over the next few weeks, however I couldn't decide what to do first. Gerri also offered to bring over a bedroom set for Annie's room that used to be her girls! Our plan was to use the Antique bedroom set that we had in the guest bedroom at the old house but this one is much more fun and kid friendly! Now we can set up the other one in the basement and still have a place for guests!

Gerri shows up with Joe's 6 month old nephew (his playmat, excersaucer, bouncy seat and toys for entertainment) 2 dressers and a smaller 3 drawer chest, her sewing kit and sewing machine just in case we get around to making curtains!!!!!

Guess what... we accomplished everything I could have imagined and more! The woman is a work horse and I was inspired by her drive! We unpacked about 4 boxes in the kitchen, rearranged the pantry, mopped the floor, dusted the Dining Room furniture, mopped the floor, stacked Dining Room boxes (as the hutch hasn't been put together yet) Arranged Annies furniture and put her clothes and toys away, unpacked about 5 boxes in our room and put all of our clothes away, arranged towels in the linen closet and things under the bathroom sink, carried boxes in from the garage and unpacked them or put them in the places where they needed to go, then headed to the basement to arrange all the boxes that were going to remain in storage! I now have a wall of Christmas boxes, a space for baby clothes and an wall of general storage things! We pulled out all the heavy boxes and furniture so that Joe could bring them upstairs when he got home and this all happened between the hours of 10 and 5!!!

I was SO happy that we completed all of these things and that I didn't get called into work because I was on call from 11-11 so I got paid $3 an hour to work at my house :o) What a deal!

So that is the story of my first day in our new house. I will have more fun stories and pictures to come!

Mothers Day

As Annie cried out tonight from her "bed" (which is a pack-n-play in the corner of Aunt Char's guest room) with a semi awake, scared, sob I jumped at the chance to go in and rock her in my arms one more time on Mothers Day. She has been going to sleep without a word for about 3 weeks now and without a bottle for a week! I think the nice weather and the longer days have afforded us one tired girl once bed time arrives that she simply falls asleep without a fight. As I looked at her in the dark and tried to balance her over my growing belly I couldn't believe how big she has gotten.
I must say I am not upset about how big she is, I am having so much fun with her right now at this age.

I am glad there is a day to honor Moms and it made me think of all the things that make us the mothers that we are. I suppose I actually became a mother about 37 weeks before this picture was taken and realized it about 3o weeks before this time. Sadly I don't have a picture of myself pacing around the house that day saying "Oh my God" with a big smile on my face! Or a picture of Joe's face at dinner when I told him that he was going to be a dad.

Mothers Day also made me think a lot about my Momma and how I love her too much! I must say that even though she is The Very Best Momma in the whole world hands down most of my life she was just "the momma". I love that we have a connection now that I know what its like to have children of my own and the pride and love you feel when you look at them and interact with them through the day. I know my Mom felt this way because she kept increasing her joy 5 times! I am sure that things like the terrible two's and teenagers probably gave my mom feelings other than joy and pride and I am sure I will experience these things as well. And I am excited to experience the joys of mothering more than one spoiled little girl :o)

Happy Belated Mothers Day my Blogging Friends!

Fun - vs - Not Fun

Fun: New house
Not Fun: Living somewhere other than your new house.

Fun: New Carpet FINALLY being installed
Not Fun: Having to sit in an empty house while carpet is being installed.

Fun: Bonnie Tyler's "Holding out for a Hero" being played on the carpet installers radio just to remind you of your completely weird, fun & music loving husband who throws all caution to the wind on your family vacation and sings along at the top of his lungs! "He's gotta be strong, he's gotta be fast and he's gotta be fresh from the fight!" I swear he would have used a hairbrush microphone if someone would have handed it to him :o)
Not Fun: A husband who is cranky and without personality every day after only getting a few hours of sleep for weeks on end... ever painted your ENTIRE house including ceilings, trim and doors? No? I don't recommend it!

Fun: Annie realizing that sounds change when she plugs her ears with her little fingers.
Not Fun: Annie screaming at the top of her lungs with her fingers in her ears because its sounds cool :o)

Fun: Being at work to find out that your friend is delivering her baby down the hall and being able to run to be by her side and offer support and hugs.
Not Fun: Having to watch your friend deliver her pre-term baby especially when yours is the EXACT same gestational age :o( However I will leave the fun delivery details to the momma :o)

As you can tell things are pretty much the same around here, I would give an EMID (estimated move in date) but I have given up trying to figure that out. I will be here with my 4 pillows ready for my bed when my husband tells me it is ready for me no matter what time of day :o) In the mean time Kelly gets to move in tonight after carpet is installed! I am excited that someone gets to live here!