What we have is enough because He is enough!

This morning I prayed "please stay in the forefront of my mind in all that i do and give me the ability to get done what needs to get done today" on my agenda was grocery (haven't been in two weeks) dishes (they're piled!) laundry (it's insane) dinner (and deliver it to a friend who I am so psyched to see she and her new babe) watch niece and nephew, no biggie, they will just play).
What I didn't plan was sneezing and wrenching my neck so badly that I spent 45 min in mind numbing pain. I've done this three times now. This was the worst of all! I felt like throwing up, I had muffled hearing for a few minutes. It was bad! I called the chiropractor and made an appointment blessing #1. He saw me immediately. I cried on my way there thinking about bringing the girls with me there was no time to drop them off anywhere. Blessing #2. It's 2 miles from my house. Blessing #3. The kind nurse lady offered to watch them for me. I cried off and on through the exam which I have never done before. They were so kind. It wasn't too painful it was just the anticipation of more pain when he adjusted me. Some parts hurt worse ham others but mostly it wast bad. I hate going to the chiropractor mostly because I think my body is such a mess it would take months of therapy to fix me and then years of follow up to keep it functioning and I hate that because it costs $30-40 every visit!!
I really wanted to still be able to bring dinner to my friend tonight so I opted for what I always have on hand, meat and potatoes. I went downstairs to grab the crock pot. I learned from a friend that you can cook a roast frozen if you use a crock pot all day... My sister borrowed my crock pot last week... Ok ill just figure out how to make it in my new Dutch oven. Ill defrost the meat while I'm at the dr.
It calls for onions (got em!) just cut in half (easier than dicing!) carrots(you don't even have to peel them!) fresh time (the only herb in my garden!) rosemary (I don't like it so I threw in bay leaves instead!) browned it all and threw it in together, put the lid on and in the oven it went! Ill add potatoes later!
The house is a mess! As I looked around other than the dishes it was all the girls stuff. "Girls time to pick up your toys!" I didn't lift a finger, just directed!! They needed a task anyway, they were beginning to act. UP!
Carly is now acting up big time, I look at the clock, glorious nap time already!!!!
I sat down on the couch to rest with ice packs and found http://www.assortmentblog.com/assortment/2013/10/on-making.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+Assortment+%28Assortment%29
This link that made me smile and think of what a true blessing it is today. It says " Make something, I remind myself.  Even in thinnest pockets of time, a stitch can be made, a row knitted, or just one or two sheets of cookies baked (and the rest of the dough chilled in the fridge until the next day). The time you have is good enough. The skills you have are, too. The space you have is just right. The supplies you have will work just fine.Make. Just make, and it will become something." 

I love to make. It's my joy to make, create and provide and God has blessed me with many talents and things to create with. So in my pain quickly and very easily I created dinner with what I had, I cleaned my space with what I have, I text my husband and asked for prayer and the rest can wait. 

This type of thing doesn't happen every day. Some days it's messy house, out of control children and pizza for dinner surviving until daddy gets home. But today is not that day. Today is sweet, and ill do my best to continue on keeping Him in the center of my frame of mind. 

Baby Havin'

I am a self proclaimed labor junkie (convenient job I have, right?). I love labor, I love thinking about it, I love going into labor, I love early labor and full fledged labor. However I will tell you that I have always gotten an epidural so I don't really know what the throes of labor are like, so feel free to tell me I am a crazy person who has no idea what I am talking about.

 

There was much sorrow and coming to terms with the finale of my pregnancy with Carly when finding out in full on labor that she was breech and I would have to have a C-Section.

However I am grateful for His grace in the fact that the sorrow didn't last longer than a few days of simply accepting it and moving on.

 

I honestly didn't think I would ever be ready to be done having babies. I thought the baby fever and the desire to be pregnant would be too strong to resist. However the reality of pregnancy and labor typically results in another child that you then have to take care of and parent. :o)

 

This has all lead me (and Joe agrees) to the realization that I. Am. Done! I don't wanna do it anymore. Not the parenting part, that is going to last quite a while, but the baby having part. I am pretty excited about this. I know there will be many days and times that I wish, and wonder and even get sad but God and reality are stronger than emotions and I will get through.

 

The funny thing is the little things that He is providing me with that make me not question our decision. My pregnancy is going wonderful so far, however with Carly it was kind of awful with all the pain and discomfort I seriously had thoughts of pitching myself out the window (in good humor of course, I was never actually suicidal). Painful pregnancy is not dreamy, I have no desire to keep that up. C-Sections are not the same, it doesn't give me the same high labor does. So why would I put labor and delivery on a pedestal like an idol when there is no guarantee? I also love, love, love feeling the baby move, to the point of probably being the most annoying mother a fetus ever had! I poke and prod and bug just to feel them poke back! However did you know that if you have an anterior placenta that is on the front of your uterus it blocks the feelings and you just don't feel all those kicks and jabs like you would otherwise. Now I am not saying I have an anterior placenta, I have no idea yet. However I am having very, very few of those first early flutters and it makes me think again about my idols of the perfect pregnancy. None of that stuff is what being pregnant is about! Its a miracle even without the kicks, it is a miracle with a C-Section. It is a miracle when you are miserable on bed rest, in pain, puking or what have you for 9 months!

 

And with all of this He is showing me what an idol I had made all things pregnancy and baby havin and I am thankful for the lesson and excited for the rest of this so far so good pregnancy. My ultrasound is in twelve days and I am super excited and super nervous as always to find out the sex and to make sure everything looks ok. The girls and I are still convinced its a boy and whereas Joe is not willing to think the same, I have heard a few boy comments come out of his mouth that have never bothered to be uttered before in the past :o)



 

 



17weeks 5 days