A few years ago I was attending ladies bible study at church. I had already attended a fall and spring course with this "facilitator" (as Ann calls herself) and now we were back together for another 12 week study. On the first day we all get our books and are introduced to how an inductive study goes and are encouraged to talk each week and share what you learned through your study homework and be very open and real with eachother. I have been taking Anns class for about 6 courses now and this particular time was the only time she said that she wanted to go around the room and have everyone introduce themselves and share something about yourself that you wish was different, that you wanted to change.
I can remember thinking to myself that there was a lot about myself that I didn't like but it all seemed silly and superficial and I was going to share the silly and superficial things however when it got to be my turn someone elses words were coming out of my mouth. I don't know if it was the process of listening to the women or what but I found myself sharing the fact that I lacked a good friend and I felt it was because I was too selfish to invest in someone elses life enough to be a friend.
I have my sisters and we are all very close, I think I have used that excuse in my adulthood for the reason I don't have a "BFF". But I felted convicted, I felt selfish and prideful in my lonely existence. I shared that I didn't know if I needed a best friend or if I just needed to be a better friend to those I had. I didn't plan on saying these things so I pretty much was just talking out loud. There was an awkward moment a while later as a girl was sharing about being new in town and not knowing anyone and not having any friends yet and Ann suggested the girl and I be best friends. I can remember thinking "no thanks" but to this day I can't tell you who that girl was ;o)
Then God
He worked on my heart through the next year or so of attending that bible study. He deepened our relationship. He made me a better person, a less superficial person, a better wife, mother, sister, and He in his perfection has seen it fit to send me a friend.
I had forgotten about sharing about needing a friend although never lost the feeling that I was lacking that person in my life that I could share things with and wouldn't you know that He provided me with a friend that I got to know in Ann's bible study last fall.
Jess, Oh my sweet friend Jess. I knew who she was because their family attend our church and Joe and I would welcome their boys Troy & Bear into nursery each week. Then week after week as the nursery workers could not console the screaming toddler Joe would take Bear out into the vestibule and play with him every sunday so his parents could stay in the worship service. No one ever asked Joe to do it, he just liked Bear and chose to.
Then Jess started attending womens bible study and she would talk and share deeeeeeep things about her life. And she would answer deeeeeeep questions with amazing loving truth about what Christ has taught her. And I was in awe of her faith and relationship with Christ.
Eventually we swapped numbers and got together for a playdate and that was an amazing opportunity to get to talk with her one on one and be challenged by the way she lived out her daily life. And I loved it, I thrived on it, I was better because of it. And I still am. Jess and I have a saying "its fun to do life with you" because when we get together we attempt to talk and have mommy time, but the truth is we just end up parenting and in between the discipline and refereeing we have a chance to say wonderful words of encouragement and love & understanding with eachother and over the summer I declared her my "BFF".


