Slow

Yesterday Annie and I headed out to run a few errands. I had to exchange a summer outfit at Kohls the 12mo didn't fit we had to go back for the 6-9mo one! Ridiculous I know!

As we were out I realized that I have entered a new phase of my life and I can't decide if its timed right or not. I have slowed down, physically, due to my growing size of course but I just cant run upstairs real quick anymore! I have haven't chosen this slow down you see but when I reach the middle of the stairs and I am already slowing down, or when I get to the top and my heart is pounding in my chest I realize that I need to slow down, this isn't physically going to happen this fast! Joe just installed hand rails on our attic and basement stairs and I find myself using them every time to literally haul myself upwards! I ask you, Where were these handrails when I was pregnant with Annie? I think I would have appreciated them! :o)

Along with physically not being able to go fast it has also physically become harder to carry Annie around. So I have been letting her walk more, which she is LOVING! If anything forces you to slow down its walking at the pace of an 18month old who has legs the length of a 9month old :o) Don't get me wrong I dont cart her around all day. I mean letting her walk into the house from the car, into the store, things like that.

I am really enjoying her immensely right now. She is SO much fun! She is funny and fun to talk to and listen to her try to repeat things. She is getting to the stage where she will try to repeat what I ask her to. So its fun to slow down and take things at her pace and enjoy her especially when I know that our alone time together is coming to an end and darn it I am just enjoying having an extra excuse to walk slow!

However I think about the timing of this slowing down. I am supposed to be packing up my house! I am supposed to be doing something right now other than wander up the sidewalk at a snails pace looking at the rocks and bugs and neighbors and anything else other than going inside to have lunch and put the baby down for a nap so that I can do the serious packing ;o)

I am having guilt issues already about packing a box and sealing it just to leave it where it sits and move on to another because I can't lift the box I just packed. I can't help load them into the truck to take them to storage. I can pick out paint and carpet but I can't help put it on the walls or tear out the old! I can strip wallpaper but something tells me that when it comes time to do so I wont be earning any sort of metals for how fast I get it done :o)

So my personal task these days has been to get a little bit done every day. Make sure that when the time comes for Joe to work on something for the move that he has what he needs or Annie is taken care of. I am trying to save money so that we have it in the account when we need to make a new house purchase. And I am personally seeing to it that we dont buy any more food but instead eat everything possible before we move so that I dont have to pack up as much from the fridge, freezer and pantry! ;o) Today Annie and I shared for lunch a can of soup, and the last of the fish sticks ;o) You're jealous I know!